I Am Blind

We were sitting around Joan’s house. Every week, the five of us would meet to pray, offer opinions on faith-based books, complete study guides, or just talk about our Spiritual lives. Because of the topics involved, we got to know each other very well.

Before discussing the next chapter in our study, our hostess had some news. She had a book that listed names, and the meaning of those names. Wouldn’t it be fun to look at ours?

There the book was, lying there all cute and innocent on the coffee table.

Joan reached over to pick up the book. Joan is the female version of  “John,” which means “Yahweh is gracious.” We all gave her affirming nods.

Each woman was handed the book. Dorothy meant “Gift of God”. Anne meant “favor or grace.” And Elizabeth? “God’s promise.”

We were all warming to the exercise.

My turn. My eyes rested on the name “Cecilia.” I started reading without scanning it first.

I proudly read: “Cecilia means ‘blind.’”

Do you remember watching Wile E. Coyote run headlong off a cliff, and not fall? Arms flailing and feet churning, there is that suspended moment of hysterical activity, trying to avoid the inevitable. That’s what was happening in the minds of my friends. They were wracking their brains for something positive to say.

It would be have been a lot easier if my name meant ‘gorgeous and insightful’. (What name means that? I’d give my right arm for that one right now.)

“I’m not blind!” I told myself. I know who God is. I attend church faithfully. I volunteer and I’m an active member of my church.

I groused about it for years. Blind indeed! Blind my eye. (Ha! Pun intended!)

Why in the world did God stand there while I was being so grievously mislabeled at my Baptism? This is obviously a quality control issue.

After a few years of mentally holding my breath and stamping my feet, I finally accepted the grace to rethink the situation. “What if being in the dark is not a bad thing?”

The time had come to consider my “blindness” as an asset. Looking through the Scriptures for some perspective, and I found this passage:

 

 I will lead the blind on their journey; by paths unknown I will guide them. I will turn darkness into light before them, and make crooked ways straight… I will not forsake them.   Isaiah 42:16

 

Thank you Isaiah! My blindness? It’s really an invitation to God. It asks him to come and stay with me.

My position of being in the dark is shared by all of us. We are blessed followers of God, and waiting patiently for his light. Because of the darkness, we are not going to stray. We don’t want to be the blind leading the blind after all.

He will come and gently take us by the hand and lead us to his path and purpose.

I love my name now. You can have “Grace” and “Promise.”

I am blind. And I am blessed.

 

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70 thoughts on “I Am Blind

  1. I love your take on your name, Ceil! The blind person depends on the one with sight to lead them correctly. It truly is a blessing to be in dependence on The Light, the One who is ever waiting to lead us on. By the way, my name means “Teller of Truth”. LOL!

    • Hi Ali! I really did come to see how ‘blindness’ is a good thing. Even a preferred thing.

      I had no idea that Alison meant “Teller of Truth”. But I know that’s what you are on your blog. You always have great insights and truths for your readers. It fits you 🙂

      Have a great day!
      Ceil

  2. Love what you have to say about your name Ceil! It’s kind of like having that “blind trust”; when you put your total, and I mean TOTAL, FULL, ALL, EVERYTHING trust in God! He will lead us from the darkness and into the light! 🙂

    Blessings sweet friend; have an amazing week!
    Denise

    • Hi Denise! It is kinda fun, and I should do it more often! Sadly, I try to take control and end up bumping into everything! LOL!

      If I let go and sit quietly, he will lead me to his own wonderful light. You are so right about that!

      Thank you for visiting today!
      Ceil

    • Hi Lauren! I knew you would love that Scripture, you are so great at picking out wonderful ones for your blog.

      And I’m glad you were encouraged too. So glad we are connected 🙂
      Ceil

  3. What a great asset it is to “see” your own inability to “see,” and need for God to lead you every step! I think I’d call that pretty clear vision for navigating those “paths unknown”!

    • Hi Sylvia! How nice to see you! Isn’t that funny that ‘clear vision’ means you admit you can’t see?

      I think our blog posts were related today. Problems without answers are like being ‘blind.’ Waiting on God is always the best answer 🙂

      Have a good Monday!
      Ceil

  4. No wonder the Holy Spirit is called the Comforter eh Ceil? We will always find a scripture to comfort us in our troubles. I read in one name book that my name means ‘flaming sword’, and in another that it meant ‘beautiful flaming spirit’. I am not sure what to think of that! Ha ha!
    God bless

    • Hi Brenda! Boy, isn’t that the truth. There is nothing new under the sun. It’s all there in the bible.

      I like both of your name meanings, but probably ‘beautiful flaming spirit’ the best. I love light in all it’s forms, so a flaming spirit would really appeal to me. And you give light to readers through your blog! It’s perfect 🙂

      Happy Monday!
      Ceil

  5. Wow Ceil! I would hardly describe you as blind… but then again God does many wonderful things in and through us if we allow Him.

    My name means “white wave”… I’m not quite sure what that’s supposed to mean.

    Thank you for sharing and inspiring.
    xoxo

    • Hi Jennifer! Aw, thanks. But God sure does his best work in my blindness. I’m not fighting for control then!

      Aren’t the meanings of our names a fun little riddle? Not sure what yours means either…maybe that’s another book?

      Always good to see you my friend. Happy Monday!
      Ceil

  6. Hi, I am visiting from Stephanie’s blog. This will be my first tea cup exchange also. Looking forward to meeting new bloggers.
    When I was 6, my mom lost her sight. As the youngest child, I became the one to lead her. She was a true inspiration, never bitter and always “seeing” the best in everyone she met. I agree with Alison’s comment….I think that sums it up. Mildred means “gentle strength.”

    • Hi Mildred! How nice of you to come over and visit! I am looking forward to the teacup exchange…I’ve never done anything like this before!

      What a beautiful story of ‘leading’ your Mom. You must have had such a close relationship! And her attitude is one to learn from, that’s for sure. Being in blindness can be so frustrating I’m sure.

      I love your name meaning! I’ll pray for that strength while I sit here waiting for the Lord.
      Looking forward to getting to know you better 🙂
      Ceil

    • Hi Linda! You are so right. As I said before, when I grab the reins, I start bumping into everything!

      He truly is the way, the truth and the light. And I’m so happy that he will lead me.

      Blessings!
      Ceil

  7. Only the blind can be lead by faith! If you aren’t “blind” you tend to want to do things and go on your own and we know what a mess that can turn out to be. It’s good to be blind! 🙂

    • Hi Monica! Well, it took me a while, but I do agree with you. It is good to be blind!

      If I try to do things on my own, I’ll knock over all kinds of stuff. Better to wait on the Lord 🙂
      Have a great Monday!
      Ceil

  8. I got a Irish name book fromt he library & Linda means serpent;wisdom and knowledgeable. I about fell over when I saw serpent..so many thoughts running thru my brain.I love your thoughts on this topic. Blessings

    • Hi Linda! I thought Linda meant ‘beautiful’? But maybe that’s Spanish.

      If I saw serpent, I’d react just like you did. It’s funny, but all these adjectives can be so positive, but our minds wrap around the negative. Wisdom and knowledgable? I’ll take that any day 🙂

      Thanks for your visit today!
      Ceil

  9. Hi Ceil,
    According to Wikipedia, Cecilia means “the way for the blind,” so really I would interpret that you are named after Jesus, the Way, the Truth and the Life for those who realize they were blind, but now, by His amazing grace, they see.

    Wikipedia also says that St. Cecilia is the patron saint of music — what a lovely thought! And Behind the Name says, ” Saint Cecilia was a semi-legendary 2nd- or 3rd-century martyr who was sentenced to die because she refused to worship the Roman gods.”

    So your name is synonymous with Christ being the Way, with music praising Him, and with faithfulness even unto death. What a wonderful name you were given, and how well it suits you!

    God bless,
    Laurie

    • Hi Laurie! You are hired!! What an amazing researcher you are! I guess I missed ‘the way for the blind’, that certainly changes the meaning, doesn’t it?

      Thank you for pointing out the music piece, I love that about St. Cecilia. She died with ‘a song in her heart’ for God. Isn’t that beautiful? Your last paragraph…I think I should frame it. It made me feel so good 🙂 You are such a wonderful encourager Laurie.

      Thank you!
      Ceil

  10. Can I just second what Linda said?! She hit the nail on the head – you ARE gorgeous and insightful 🙂 You have opened your eyes to the beauty of your name (and that is not supposed to be a pun).

    Big hugs to you, sweet Ceil!

    • Hi Stephanie! Awww…you are to kind, my friend. Thank you!

      It was fun to finally see blindness as a blessing. Being in the dark is ok! It just means that God will come. That’s a great thing 🙂

      Thank you for your visit today!
      Ceil

    • Hi Patty! I really did think of your daughter when I posted this. I hoped you’d come along and read it. If you come back to read this response, please read the comment from Laurie. She really did some research on the name, it’s very enlightening!

      Hope you have a good evening 🙂
      Ceil

  11. I am not surprised by this at all. I believe that because the correct meaning of your name is “the way for the blind”, that you have found your calling!! You are by spirit and name an evangelizer for Christ, to clear the way, to open other’s eyes, allowing those who may be blind to the truth of Jesus, to see the love He has for them, possibly for the first time. What a gift you are to all of us Cecelia, your name fits you perfectly!

    • Hi Jeanette! I like the way Laurie explained it too, it seems more gentle, doesn’t it?

      Thank you for your support, you know I appreciate it! I think we are all called to be ‘eye-openers’ so I hope I’ll live up to my name 🙂

      Thank you for commenting my friend. It’s always fun to see your name pop up!
      Have a good evening, hope today wasn’t too crazy?
      Ceil

  12. I love how your attitude changed on your name, Ceil! Awesome! I also wanted to stop by and apologize. Last month, you left a comment on my site and it was in pending. I never saw it until today. Too many times, I don’t receive an email for the comments I get. I’m so sorry for the oversight. Have a blessed week! 😀

    • Hi Lynn! I was very fortunate to be led by grace to rethink my name. I learned a lot!

      Oh my! I guess that was part of the communication problem we were having…how weird! But I have had to fish some comments out of my spam folder too, so I completely understand. Thanks for telling me my friend 🙂

      Have a peaceful evening,
      Ceil

  13. aw Ceil.. lovely message (:)
    an interesting time to post it too and so amazing I came by today..am having a cataract removed tomorrow morn (:)

    thanks on my mirror too ~~
    hugs..Patty

    • Hi Patty! I will be praying for you, for a successful surgery and result. I used to scrub in on cataract surgery all the time. And that was many years ago! It is a very common procedure, so I hope you are not too nervous.

      I did love the placement of your mirror. So cute!
      Sleep well my friend,
      Ceil

    • Hi Margie! Oh thank you so much, you are such an encourager.

      It was great to find a way to see ‘blind’ as a positive. What does your name mean? It’s fun to research and think about…

      Hugs,
      Ceil

  14. Nice to meet you “Blind”! I am “Bitter”…lol. Bitter Grace, actually, because Mary is my nickname, my full name is Marianne, a combination of Mother Mary’s name and her mother’s name. At first because of the meaning, like you, I thought “Say what?!” Now I have a better understanding of what a beautiful name it is. The name Mary is derived from an herb that was also used to dress the Passover lamb by the Jewish people. Interesting, isn’t it? Even more interesting is that there were three “Mary’s” beneath the cross at the Crucifixion of Our Lord, the “Lamb of God”. That Lamb too was “side-dressed with bitter herbs”! And Anne means grace. I always liked my name after reading about this! And I like your name too! To be completely led by the Lord? Wow! Just perfect!

    • Hi Marianne! I loved the explanation of the ‘bitter’ of Mary. I remember knowing a girl named “Mara” and her name meant ‘bitter.’ I wondered why a Mom would call her daughter bitter?

      But you really shone a light on the name for me. Isn’t it fun to find the truth in our names? The bitter herb thing I just never heard of before…wonderful!

      Well, I’ll hope to be led by the Lord, and do less running around on my own, bumping into everything! It’s a great goal, and sure want to work toward that every day.
      Thanks for visiting today Mary!
      Ceil

  15. Blind, but no longer living in darkness but in the light of Christ. Love your perspective on your name. My real name is Melinda but most family and friends call me by Mindy (as my Grandma called me from birth and it stuck) which I have read is gentle.

  16. Hi Melinda! I think ‘gentle’ is just right for you. You have a gentleness in your writing that shines through.

    Isn’t it funny how our names get shortened? Your grandmother gave you ‘Mindy’, I guess my Mom gave me ‘Ceil’. But whatever we are called, our names have power and meaning. Wonderful!

    Good to see you today 🙂
    Ceil

  17. I’m starting to learn that some blindness is a gift. For me, I like to have a plan and I like to go full steam ahead to reach the goal. I’m currently in a blind season. I don’t know the “plan”, I don’t know the “goal” I am supposed to be working toward.

    This is such a blessing, it forces me to trust God, to seek Him moment by moment for my next step.
    Far too often I rush ahead and need to take a few steps back to correct my mistake. So God is teaching me to follow Him and He is using “blindness” to help me through this stage of life.

    • Hi TC! So you are learning the same thing I did, that’s pretty amazing! I think I walk in blindness more than I realize. It does force me to sit quietly for the Lord to take my hand. Things go a lot more smoothly that way, that’s for sure.

      How beautiful that you can see God moving in your life this way. And that the ‘blindness’ is really a call to accept his help. You are being blessed with some wonderful insights. God is so good!

      Thank you for your visit, and your blog-friendship! Have a wonderful afternoon, and a peaceful evening 🙂
      Ceil

    • Hi JBR! It has been a long time hasn’t it? How nice of you to visit me today!

      I’m glad you liked the post. I sure had a great revelation about the meaning of my name. It changed how I saw it, and I love it now 🙂

      Have a peaceful evening!
      Ceil

    • Hi Dolly! Thank you for your supportive comments. I finally was able to see how ‘blind’ is really a great place to be. It took a while though! Maybe my name should mean ‘stubborn’!

      Have a good evening and restful night,
      Ceil

    • Hi Susan! I was so happy to see that ‘blind’ could be a great spiritual attribute…even preferable! It took a while, but with God’s grace, I got there.

      Thank you for your lovely comment!
      Blessings,
      Ceil

    • Hi Linda! Awww…you are so sweet. Thank you so much.

      I was just glad to see the meaning of my name in a positive way. It took a while, but I got there with God’s wonderful grace.

      Always a pleasure to see you!
      Ceil

  18. I love it when God leads me through dark places! Thanks for blindly allowing God to lead you in your blog writing! It’s a great place to be…being lead by our Savior to places we could never see without Him! Be blessed, Ceil! And keep writing!

    • Hi Lori! He sure does lead us through the dark into his own wonderful light, doesn’t he?

      And I think he leads you too in your blog writing. I know you always write about your life, and how God is found in it. Wonderful! I’ll tell you too…Keep writing!!

      Have a restful night my friend,
      Ceil

  19. Ceil: I used to feel cheated by the meaning of my name. (Same as yours). I was in the Christian Family Store or its local fore runner and saw some parchment pages with names and their meanings on them.Our of curiosity, I flipped through them. To my surprise, my (our) sheet read that the Christian meaning of my (our) name was QUIET SPIRIT. I didn’t remember this until I named my writing ministry. What I regret about finding that parchment that day was I didn’t have any money to purchase it.

    • Hi Cecelia! So that’s why your blog name starts with “Quiet Spirit”? I have never seen that meaning for Cecilia. Even in Christian bookstores, I would see it defined as ‘blind.’

      I think I would accept Quiet Spirit faster than blind! I’m sorry you didn’t have the money then…I wonder if such a thing is still available? Might be worth looking around the internet…

      Thank you for giving me another interpretation of Cecilia. We have a great name though, don’t we?
      Blessings to a fellow Quiet Spirit 🙂
      Ceil

  20. I will always think of you as beautiful and insightful, no matter what the name books say. Although there are truths to be drawn from even that, as you illustrated here. Thanks for your insight and for always making me think! 🙂

    • Hi Karen! Aww…you are so kind. Thank you for your lovely comment. You made my day 🙂

      There are truths to find in the meaning of our names. I am so glad that I could finally find a way to see blind as positive. God is good!

      Have a restful night Karen. And thank you for your blog-friendship!
      Ceil

    • Hi Nan! Thank you, I’m so glad you liked the post.

      Great thought on Jesus healing the blind man. So true! Now I can see how beautiful my name is. Thank you for adding that!

      Have a good day my friend,
      Ceil

  21. I used to hate my name because it was the opposite of my life that I had before. But God has other plans for me and now I am loving my name ( Ligaya means joy)

    • Hi Joy! How beautiful! God brought you to the life that matches your name. Isn’t it amazing how God works? I love your name, it’s a fruit of the Holy Spirit. Can’t get much greater than that, right?

      It’s nice to see you again Joy! I hope we will get reconnected now that I am in my new blog home 🙂
      Ceil

  22. Hi mom!

    Well, seeing as I’m Katherine Cecilia, I am “pure”ly blind! But what a great way to look at the meaning of blind, in the positive sense. When we are blind, we can create our own beauty, not the image society deams beautiful. And that is a gift, a beautiful gift!

    • Hi Dear! Well, it took a while to get positive about it, but it was worth it. You should also read the comment from Laurie. She really investigated the name for me (and you) and it was interesting what she found.

      Good point about the freedom to see our own beauty. If we’re blind, we’re not going to pay attention to what’s around us. Good one! That is a beautiful gift. Just like you.

      I hope you get some sleep!
      Hugs,
      Mom

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